Dear Mama,

May 1, 2013 - Leave a Response

I don’t know what’s wrong with me lately but I cry so easily.  Every little things brings me to the brink or tears or beyond it.  

I just heard a song and the words hit me so hard.  I thought of you and wished I could see you again.  I know, while I’m on this earth, I know I wont see you again but I know there will be a time when I will.  

Till I see you again…

See You Again by Carrie Underwood

LYRICS:
Said goodbye, turned around
And you were gone, gone, gone
Faded into the setting sun,
Slipped away
But I won’t cry
Cause I know I’ll never be lonely
For you are the stars to me,
You are the light I follow

[Chorus]
I will see you again, oh
This is not where it ends
I will carry you with me, oh
Till I see you again

I can hear those echoes in the wind at night
Calling me back in time
Back to you
In a place far away
Where the water meets the sky
The thought of it makes me smile
You are my tomorrow

[Repeat Chorus]

Sometimes I feel my heart is breaking
But I stay strong and I hold on cause I know
I will see you again, oh
This is not where it ends
I will carry you with me, yeah yeah

I will see you again, oh
This is not where it ends
I will carry you with me, oh
Till I see you again
Till I see you again,
Till I see you again,
Said goodbye turned around
And you were gone, gone, gone.

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Dear Mama,

March 4, 2013 - Leave a Response

Today I was thinking about when you were playing with my son Riley when he was about 1 – 2 years old and how you said his name the way you did…  I remember feeling a little jealous.  I remembered when you used to say my name that way and smile big that way you do at little children.  I miss that smile.  After a while kids become more of a frustration and you lose that smile.  I wish I could see that smile again…. that huge smile and the twinkle in your eyes when a little child reached out his arms to go to you.  I remember the sounds and clicks of the tongue you made to get their attention.  I wish I had put a little of that away for another day…. a rainy day without you.

Dear Mama,

July 12, 2011 - Leave a Response

I heard this song and just cried and cried… I wish you were here so I didn’t have to sing it in past tense.

“Like My Mother Does”

[Verse 1]
People always say
I have a laugh
Like my mother does
Guess that makes sense
She taught me how to smile
When things get rough

I’ve got her spirit
She’s always got my back
When I look at her
I think, I want to be just like that

[Chorus]
When I love I give it all I’ve got
Like my mother does
When I’m scared, I bow my head and pray
Like my mother does

When I feel weak and unpretty
I know I’m beautiful and strong
Because I see myself like my mother does

[Verse 2]
I never met a stranger
I can talk to anyone
Like my mother does
I let my temper fly
And she can walk away
When she’s had enough

She sees everybody
For who they really are
I’m so thankful for her guidance
She helped me get this far

[Chorus]
When I love I give it all I’ve got
Like my mother does
When I’m scared, I bow my head and pray
Like my mother does

When I feel weak and unpretty
I know I’m beautiful and strong
Because
I see myself like my mother does

[Bridge]
She’s a rock
She is grace
She’s an angel
She’s my heart and soul
She does it all

[Chorus]
When I love I give it all I’ve got
Like my mother does
When I’m scared, I bow my head and pray
Like my mother does

When I’m weak and unpretty
I know I’m beautiful and strong
Because
I see myself like my mother does
Like my mother does

I hear people saying
I’m starting to look like my mother does

Dear Mama,

May 25, 2011 - Leave a Response

“If I had a flower for every time I thought of you…I could walk through my garden forever.”
― Alfred Lord Tennyson

I miss you mama.

Dear mama,

April 17, 2011 - Leave a Response

I read this little quote and it made me think of you… I wish I knew who wrote it.

“Treasured thoughts of one so dear,
Often bring a silent tear,
Thoughts of scenes long past,
Years roll on but memories last”

I think of you all the time.  I just crocheted this neat hot pad that is woven together and I know you would have liked to make it to.  When I was making it I had a brief though that I should tell you about it but then I remembered that were are in heaven.  I wonder if you are crafting there.  Most likely :O)  Love you mama.

Dear Mama,

February 8, 2011 - Leave a Response

I wish you were here to talk to right now.  I really wish I knew what you’d say.  I quit my job because I can’t do my job as well as I should and I don’t want to be a burden on the others anymore.  I really don’t want to make any mistakes and mess up someone’s test results.  I decided to quit before that happens or I get in trouble for calling in sick all the time.

I wish I knew why I’m having these problems.  Why am I in pain all the time.  Why is this happening to me?

I think you would probably tell me to pray about it.  You’d probably tell me that God has a plan and I need to have faith in him.

I think I’ll pray about it.

Love you,

Donna

 

Dear Mama,

May 1, 2009 - One Response

This Mother’s Day I want to give you

the most beautiful flowers you’ve ever seen

and watch your eyes light up at the site of them.

 

I want to give you a hug

and reminisce about when I was young

and you were younger…

 

Like when you taught me how to tie

with the belt of your red robe

and when you taught me how to make biscuits….

and then how to cut off the bottoms.

 

Oh mom, there is so much I want to tell you…

But this Mother’s Day you are in Heaven

and all I can do is think of you

and pray I’ll be with you again soon.

 

Love,

Your Daughter

Dear Mama,

December 21, 2008 - Leave a Response

I miss you so much right now.  Not having you here at Christmas is killing me.  My heart was really breaking on my birthday when I couldn’t talk to you and then again on your birthday. 

Everything I see reminds me of you now that it’s Christmas time.  I know how you love red, and cardinals, poinsettias and amaryllis and I see them everywhere in the stores and in emails I get.  I really wish I could see you again.  The amaryllis flower I bought last year and thought might have died a long time ago just started growing.  I almost sat it outside a few times thinking for sure it was dead but decided to keep it because I could see green on the bulb.  It grew so fast and now it is over a foot tall with 4 leaves.   I think it’s neat that it decided to grow for me now when I needed you. 

I have run into some of our old friends who asked how you are.  My heart just hits the floor every time.  Chris is helping me though.  He knows I’m hurting for you and he remembers how he felt after he’s dad died.  He’s taking good care of me.

Miss you mama,

Donna

Dear Mama,

October 27, 2008 - Leave a Response

When I was in Phoenix sitting by the lake on the bench under the tree I felt like you were there.  I fed the ducks and thought of how you could have enjoyed that.  This mallard could walk right up to me and eat from my hand.  I know how much you love birds.  

ducks on the pond near Windmill Suites in Surprise, AZ

ducks on the pond near Windmill Suites in Surprise, AZ

I saw this one speckled one that I knew would have been your favorite.  I of course loved this white one that had splotches of green feathers on it’s head with tuff’s that stuck out and made it look like it had mussed up hair.  After a few minutes I saw something move above me from the corner of my eye.  It was a humming bird and it was beautiful.  It darted around like a dragonfly.  I remembered you sending me pictures of humming birds at your feeders that stuck to the windows.  You were right too, it’s nearly impossible to get a picture of them.  I thought I missed it but I actually caught it in one shot.  It’s hard to see though. 

Humming bird

Humming bird

Thanks for joining me there.  I’ve missed you so.
Donna

Dear mama,

June 21, 2008 - Leave a Response

My garden is really starting to look beautiful now that everything has had some time to grow.  My wild Iris are blooming now and my pink bleeding heart is 2 feet tall.  Everytime I walk through my garden I think of you.  I just wish I could talk to you one more time.  There are so many things I wish I could have asked you or talked to you about…  I keep thinking of all the time I had to talk to you when I didn’t.  Wasted moments, wasted memories. 

I heard this song today and it made me think of you…. 

I Still Miss you

Keith Anderson

I’ve changed the presets in my truck
so those old songs don’t sneak up
they still find me and remind me
yeah you come back that easy
try restaurants I’ve never been to
order new things off the menu
that I never tried cause you didn’t like
two drinks in you were by my side

I’ve talked to friends
I’ve talked to myself
I’ve talked to God
I prayed liked hell but I still miss you
I tried sober I tried drinking
I’ve been strong and I’ve been weak
and I still miss you
I’ve done everything move on like I’m supposed to
I’d give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you
I still miss you baby

I never knew til you were gone
how many pages you were on
it never ends I keep turning
and line after line and you are there again
I dont know how to let you go
you are so deep down in my soul
I feel helpless so hopeless
its a door that never closes
no I don’t know how to do this

I’ve talked to friends
I’ve talked to myself
I’ve talked to God
I prayed liked hell but I still miss you
I tried sober I tried drinking
I’ve been strong and I’ve been weak
and I still miss you
I’ve done everything
move on like I’m supposed to
I’d give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you yeah

I’ve talked to friends
I’ve talked to myself
I’ve talked to God
I prayed liked hell but I still miss you
I tried sober I tried drinking
I’ve been strong and I’ve been weak
and I still miss you
I’ve done everything
move on like I’m supposed to
I’d give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you yeah

I still miss you
I still miss you…… yeah…. yeah…..